Life is hard or is it?


Ever put your face between your palms and feel the prick of tears beneath your eyelids?

Ever wondered how you will find the strength to go on?

Ever wondered how on earth you can smile when you see all your dreams crashing down like a pile of rubble?

Ever wondered why though you are in the world surrounded by billions of people you feel like there is no one else who knows what it feels like to be so alone?

Ever trudged silently up a hill putting one step in front of the other wondering if you would ever have the strength to get to the top?

Ever felt like the weight of the world is crushing you slowly but surely and wondering whether you would ever be able to smell the roses or see the sunrise?

Ever looked so hard in the darkness to just see a glimer of light and instead all you saw where the glimmer of eyes belonging to the hordes of hell?

Ever fought a battle in your own strength and knew without a shadow of doubt that the next blow would strike you down and death was as certain as you were?

Ever smiled so hard that the skin of your face felt stretched as flat as a pancake?

Ever wondered how you could ever be tired?

Ever wondered how on earth anything was going to shatter your world when everything just seemed to be going o so fine?

Ever felt smothered by the love of friends and family and wondered how you could be so blessed?

Ever ran a marathon with surprising bursts of energy smiling at those who you passed clutching their sides on your way to the finish line?

Ever felt so light and full of joy and laughter and filled with a life of promise?

Ever held a torch or source of light that moved the boundaries of darkness beyond its reach?

Ever fought a battle from the sidelines with your champion fighting for you and all you had to do was cheer him on?

Comments

  1. Prism of an Immigrant10:04 PM

    Are you now blogging again? What a pleasant surprise to see this

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  2. olaoluwatomi2:52 PM

    Thanks Prism! I felt like venting so I wrote this, I dont know I may come back, I may not. I guess I'll write when I feel up to it!
    How are you doing?

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