Chains & Freedom

The tears do not fall down my cheeks
They roll down my throat
The smiles I paint on my face
Are white lies stuck on to save face
The words I speak are laced with pain
But tinged with humour and jest to deceive

My bed has become a prison and a refuge
Dawn breaks and Im loathe to rise
but before the night beckons I seek solace in the sheets
I toss and turn, rest and recover,
The alarm goes off but I am not roused by its shrill sounds
I want to sleep away the day, every part of it.

Is life so bad? Is there nothing more to it than this?
Am I to crawl around as a beast hunted?
The pain sears, it lashes out without pity, without mercy
It smothers and seeks to crush out every flicker of life
The burden is more than I can bear
Will no one help lift it from my chest?

Silently, quietly I feel a breath of fresh air
Swirling like a mist within the dank damp walls of my prison
It does not chill and it does not tease
Its a whisper yet it wraps itself like a warm blanket around my cold bones
It eases the pain I feel, it lifts the boulder lying on my heart
and it brings with it a flicker of light and a taste of hope.

Comments

  1. Swat11:21 AM

    Sounds like how I've felt for most of my teen and adult life! You took me back there, the most painful and darkest moments of my existence.

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  2. olaoluwatomi10:43 PM

    Thanks for stopping by Swat!

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  3. Anonymous7:23 AM

    Hmmm... couldn't have described my own experience better... but the beauty I live for/with/on is the 'warmth of the whisper'...

    Great piece again!

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